Life's not fair

I was just thinking that life is not fair. It really isnt. Too depressing to go into details about all the reasons why...but I came across this poem ....

Life's Not Fair - Praise God

It's just not going the way I want
Does God in heaven care
Can't he see I need him here
I cried, "Life's just not fair.
The prodigal was foolish with what he had
Spending his money here and there
Until his funds had drained away
Then he cried, "Life's just not fair."
Many heroes from Bible times
Went sailing on waters of despair
They were to blame yet cried out loud
Oh God, "Life's just not fair".
A garden perfect in every way
To walk with God without a care
But disobedience was the thanks he got
It's true, "Life's just not fair."
His Son he sent, his light to share
We killed his Son, laid in the sod
We deserved to die, he gave us life
Life's just not fair - praise God.

Well..thinking in that perspective, I should be thankful. Its a good thing we dont get what we deserve because what we deserve is hell. BUT PRAISE GOD, we have hope!

I have been really focusing on seeing the positive and not the negative, which I struggle with and still do but I have been constant in prayer and thinking about my blessings.
Work in progress! :)

Unexplainable

Ok, I have so many thoughts on my Bible study and I have wanted to blog about it but I jsut havent done it. So I am doing it now....

This bible study has been amazing and so was the bible study before. I am in Beth Moore's Bible study "Jesus the One and Only." It is a study of Jesus' life. Awesome study. Awesome God. I recommend any Beth Moore study.

I have been a Christian most of my life and so I know most of the stories of the Bible like the back of my hand. However, the downside of that is that it can become...I dont know the word that I am looking for but like you can begin to just read the words and not really think about what you are reading. Do you get what I am saying? It is hard to explain, but not really taking it to heart because you already know the story. Well this study , I have met with Jesus in a whole new way. I have walked with him through his journeys in Jerusalem, Galilee, Samaria, the Garden of Gethsemane....became an eyewitness through everything he did. Beth encourages us to really picture everything you are reading. Now, as simple as this sounds, it was a new birth for me to reading the Bible..as I have done so many times in the past but just really reading the words, if I am honest with myself. This time I have opened my eyes and imaginiation as I read what Jesus did, said, etc. It is difficult to explain all my thoughts on this but thats ok. lol I realize I am repeating myself. It is just amazing how a book that has been around for so long and that you have read so many times, could give you new insights when you read it again!

Now I could write a whole book about my thoughts on all the sessions, but I am going to write a little about this session tonight. In the video message, Beth set the stage at the Mount of Olives after the Last Supper and before Judas' betrayal and Jesus' death...in the Garden of Gethsemane. It was a theme of God's Will. Jesus was so much in anguish about what was going to happen, he sweat blood. This is an example of me reading this so many times, I dont really think about it...But really think about......He SWEAT BLOOD.... that is intense...He said "Father, if its possible, let this cup pass from me....but not my will but your will be done." Beth said "More than any other place in Scripture, we see Christ at the full crisis of his duel role as God-man." He. being fully man, didnt want to suffer, but he...being God also knew he had to.

The thing that hit me again was, she said "What if Jesus said, 'Frankly, I don't think they're worth it." :0!!! Which he could very well have said! But he loved us soooo much that he knew he needed to do that to redeem us. It's amazing. Because in reality, we arent worth it. We arent worth any of it. But he paid the price...the worst, most aweful death! not only physically but spiritually - all of the sins and diseases of the world on his shoulders...........We just cant fathom it...no words. God is love. Our minds wont comprehend the depth of it all but we can trust. Just liked the song says, "I'll never know how much it cost to see my sin upon that cross..." And all we have to do is believe! :)

I could go on and on. I am just so thankful for these studies and I am really working on examining my thoughts and actions and living for God and pleasing Him. It is a journey! I love studying God's Word and I want to grow in him and let down my pride and have more of God. There is so much to be thankful for - which is a whole new blog ...

Not me Monday

I think I will jump on the bandwagon of "Not Me Mondays.."

Here is a little 'not me monday'...
I definitely did not get so frustrated with Nick because he tilted in the flap on his coffee cup lid where you take a sip because he said "you get more coffee when you sip if you do that." I did not keep yelling, "umm...your mouth pushes it in so you get the same amount of coffee!!" LOL
I dont know if that makes sense but it was ridiculous lol

I dont know why it bothered me so much lol I just need to be right. I mean I DONT need to be right. ;)

(umm I am working on being creative with this thing haha getting there) haha


more later..........

Random and Anyways

First of all. why are people so weird? anyways haha

I know I always talk about Drew but he is my world. besides Jesus Christ who IS my world.So thankful for everyything God has blessed us with...that is a whole other post...anyways I dont know who reads this anyways. Drew puts a smile on my face everyday. I just love him so much. When he hugs me and says my name, it is the best feeling. I know I will love it even more when he says 'I love you mommy'. =)
He is a stinker though. Into mischief lol except I think sometimes. He is exploring the world for the first time which is crazy to think about. He loves the outside and cries and cries when we take him inside. He would play all day outside if we let him.

At the moment he is going through my purse and I dont care at the moment haha there isnt anything he can get into that is bad right now... this is how it is with him -constantly running after him as he is getting into anything and everything and climbing up and in and over everything ! :) I love it though! He is amazingly fun and I love him.

Getaway/random thoughts

So Nick and I went on a mini getaway to Birch Run outlets and Hampton Inn without Drew. It was a fun time and a good time to spend with just Nick. However, I missed Drew. It is just amazing how your life and attitudes/thoughts change when you have a child. It is hard to explain. ANyways, I was very emotional when we dropped him off. I dont know why but I cried and cried lol
When we were at the outlets I just thought about Drew lol I wasnt even thinking about buying things for me. We of course went to Carters and I could go crazy in there with all the adorable outfits for babies and toddlers and there are a lot of cute clothes for boys! for those of you and me before thinking there isnt. ;) Nick was there to keep me from going crazy. It was hard though!

So there is alot I could write but...see I am just not a good blogger. I want to be but its like I have too many thoughts to write down haha

However, I will blog more now. I promise. For those who would like to read. lol